I felt a lot better after getting some fresh air. I didn’t have Gang Gang with me but it was okay. I didn’t spend a lot of time outside but it’s enough for now. I debate a lot of things in my head but my present feelings always takes priority. I’m always calming my soul if that makes sense.
I know I’m fucked up rn cuz I’d rather take a night walk in my neighborhood with its scammers, predators, racists and bigots than be near my roommate rn.
If you’re going to show me another article about white oppression and how hard it is to be white right now, please just get the fuck out of my house. IM ASIAN AMERICAN. FUCK OFF WITH YOUR OUTDATED, STUPID TRAPS/WHITE POWER PROPOGANDA/ PRAGER U CLICKBAIT BULLSHIT. YOU MIGHT AS WELL GRAB SOME DUCT TAPE AND PUT THE LAEBL “Stupid fuck” ON YOUR GIANT FOREHEAD and walk around Home Depot with it. SHUT THE FUCK UP. I didn’t buy this fucking house to be treated like this. AGHHHHHHHGGGHDBWNJDIDJ
Fuck you. Wake up or get the fuck out of here before I get any more s******* from just LOOKING AT YOU.
IF YOURE A MONSTER, FIX YOURSELF.
YOU DESERVE A HAPPY ENDING, TOO.
....NOT WHEN YOURE A PIECE OF SHIT VILLAIN THO, (even if you won’t acknowledge it. You know it, too. Everyone hates you for good reason so stop bitching and just fix yourself. 🥴
*breathe*
*meditate*
*stream and shake tiddies*
*then go to sleep.*
I want to change the world and feel like I make a difference.
But when I come home and my roommate calls me Ling Ling or some other not really funny joke, I remember that I mean absolutely nothing.
I’ve been avoiding home since I woke up today. I’m gonna out in some earplugs and pretend my roommate doesn’t exist. It’s the only way for me to stop hurting. Deep breaths, a bottle of water and a walk will reset me. No shopping or crying.
I have to stream today. That Myanmar family deserves and all of Myanmar matters. If I stream. Please feel free to use my content to get yourself views on YouTube or porbhub. Please divert traffic/credit me so I can keep doing this. Include whatever news articles or info you want. We can change things together. We have. We will continue. We will change the world. 🤍
I love you!
I am still fighting.
I fight every day.
I just need lots of breaks to deal with the shock of being me and seeing the things I see when I get online. Asian girls have to deal with seeing lots of random comments they shouldn’t have to see or be subject to. 😅 We’re so strong and special! 🥰💪🏽
Ps. Don’t ask for massage porn roleplay rn, asswipes. Give it some time. Jfc. 🙄
Welcome to the shit show.
Additions and corrections.
Start journaling if you feel crazy. Creative writing or art is good, too! I write on trash and the back of memo pads. 📝 I go back and forth on notes on my iPhone X. I wonder if you guys write. I’m often talking to nobody so you don’t have to respond if you don’t want to. 😋
I love you!
I can’t believe people are still talking trash about me. 🙄🤣 if you’re one of my friends and you see it. Please just defend me kindly or show them the real me. I don’t like reading messages that remind me that thousands of people hate me.( It’s not healthy for me. )
(Is is helpful to mention it was a white person that saved me from my last racial based assault? Idk. I feel so bad for all the white people who have to take the heat for the super stupid racist white people we all hate. You know, the shooters and creeps that are very real in our communities. It’s hard and y’all are so strong. Older white men have spoken up for me when other White people weren’t listening to me and I’ll never forget that. (Irl) I love y’all. ( I love all people, I’m trying to take turns loving everyone eventually. I am only one person. Ah. Tangent again.)
I get weirded out when people assume it’s always a white person. Sometimes, it is, sometimes it isn’t. Sometimes, it’s from other Asian people, as weird as that sounds. I’ve never understood extra specific racism. Like we all don’t have enough to be stressed about. LOL.
Anyways, I’m real glad change is coming. I wish the hashtag was #SaveTheAsians. I saw a bunch of Asian people being put into a box car on twitter awhile back and I haven’t been able to get the video out of my head. It got worse. I know I’m scared to go outside for very valid reasons and I’m not gonna let anyone break me anymore. I am strong. I am not alone.
I will order some Chinese food through uber eats and then put make up on. Then I will put on make up like a normal girl would and take fun sexy pictures and have fun with it. We make difference. We won’t stop. ☺️
0 days since last cryfest.
🤣😡😭✨
My 6’6 Canadian roommate is insanely hot but... whenever he says something stupid my pussy dries up. 😔
I’d rather talk to an ugly, short and rich dude rn. At least I wouldn’t lose myself. 😂
HOW DO YOU CONVINCE YOUR ROOMMATE COVID-19 IS REAL??? Also, how do you keep people from the stupid ignorant online traps rich and evil people leave for us to deal with?
(I wish we could just remove Prager U and idiot baits on Reddit/4chan forums.)
I love you! ☺️♥️🙏🏼🍀
Everything’s going to be okay! Cuz we can change whatever we don’t like. I believe in you, me, us, everybody in the world has the power. We really do!!!! 🌍
I LOVE YOU
SELF LOVE
GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU NEED IT
Phone’s recharging. Back at 50%. Needs include more phones. Help me take over the world and take care of it with Marina’s Maid cafe. ☺️♥️🇺🇸🙏🏼 The world needs as many good people as possible.