First thing I do on a Monday morning, get counselling. I’m ..

First thing I do on a Monday morning, get counselling. I’m not going to pretend to you that I’m this perfect person. Believe me, I’m far from it. I’m not going to let my head ruin my happiness. So what do you do? Get help. I self wallowed for far too long, I have burnt myself out (shock). - I feel I need a reset. This is thing folks - so many of you are the same and are afraid to amid it to yourselves. There is a certain type of shame that comes with it. “I’m broken” “I’m a broken person”. I hate to admit defeat, those that know me - know that I have a buzz, a sparkle, a zest for life and that’s true. Sometimes in life you have to say, “fuck it - I’m doing this for me”. You lot have been telling me off so much for working too much, this is me listening to you. Thank you for looking after me, when even I can’t see my own detriment. You lot know me the most, more so than I even know myself. Mental health is a subject I’m not going to shy away from. We all have mental health, some varies, some remains constant, some it’s a rollercoaster, some are going through things, and I know you lot are. Just know, that it’s okay to not be okay, and what’s NOT okay - is doing fuck all about it. Listen to me, get help. I was on the phone to someone this morning. If you can do it, so can I and vice Versa. Believe in yourself, you have gotten yourself to this point, so what is someone else supporting you when you’re down, anxious, moody, depressed. I think we rely too much on our “fake” Facades that we put on to people, and yet the only person we are fooling is us - think about it. I’m an idiot, I have taken on far too much (again) - I’m tired. You have no idea how much people demand of me, the constant messages, the wanting more of me. People will take, take, take and forget that there is a person behind this screen. Who’s trying their best. The same goes for you. So, speak to your doctor, speak to your boss, get that free help - for fuck sake folks it costs you - NO MONEY? Why the fuck are we not helping ourselves????? It makes ZERO sense. Like logically it’s the stupidest thing ever? But, we are human. We like to appear strong, well put together and on it to others. It’s a glitch in our matrix almost. SPEAK UP, before it destroys you. This is just my rambles of where my heads at. You know there are people who give a shit about you - there is and if you don’t think that - then know - I give a shit about you because I’m trying here typing to help you see that it’s okay to not be okay. You're not broken folks. You’re human.