it started with him telling me to trust him…⁣ ⁣ even though ..

it started with him telling me to trust him…⁣ ⁣ even though i felt resistance, i decided to lean in. he strapped my ankles & wrists down to the bed. spread wide open, nowhere to hide⁣ ⁣ wherever he wants to take me, i’ll go ⁣ ⁣ i felt the intensity of the cold ice cubes he slid down my back to my thighs⁣ ⁣ i felt the leather of the impact toys on my body⁣ ⁣ oh, the sweet suspense of that next spanking⁣ 👋🏼 ⁣ *I experienced an embodied revelation of what true surrender feels like⁣* ⁣ surrender to the mystery, to sensation, to my lover, to god, to the lover that is life itself ⁣ ⁣ surrender to the gift of the divine masculine⁣ ⁣ i feel his confidence to direct & dominate, from an embodied place of love⁣ ⁣ he penetrates me with Truth. ⁣ ⁣ the BDSM subspace is the key to my empowered liberation⁣ ⁣ as i submit & surrender even deeper, i melt into my truest expression⁣ ⁣ releasing thoughts, fears, anxieties⁣ ⁣expanding my capacity to FEEL⁣ ⁣ holding all sensation, all at once, as holy & welcome⁣ i’m devoured in his embrace⁣ ⁣ i feel myself melting open⁣ in love⁣ as love⁣ ⁣ his pries open all the parts of me that have been closed off & contracted⁣ ⁣ parts of me were still holding on though. i was afraid of losing who i think i am⁣ ⁣ *sweet girl⁣,* how she spent most of her life building up an identity⁣ ⁣ parts of her were reluctant to let go⁣. to these parts, surrender feels like a loss of power⁣ ⁣ i breathe. ⁣ 🌬 ⁣ i allow my lover to have his way with me. and i remember the fullness of love in every cell of my body⁣ ⁣ i relax as the radiance of love itself..open so wide into love that my personality vanished⁣ ⁣ separation dissolved.⁣ god becomes two.⁣ two become one. ⁣ ⁣ i remembered what i have always been, since before my body was birthed on earth⁣ ⁣ sounding, speaking in ancient tongues⁣ ⁣ i allow source consciousness to use me as a vessel ⁣ ⁣ the codes of light language stream through me⁣ 🪐 ⁣ a joy ride with god⁣, love making portal with the divine⁣ ⁣ the ecstasy of losing myself in the present moment⁣ ⁣ *i merge with the holiest of holies in the dungeon of dark love*⁣ ⁣ when you’re tied down at the mercy of someone else, you have no idea what to expect.⁣ ⁣ i allowed myself to stop needing to know what’s next⁣ ⁣ our spicy, kinky, BDSM ritual…is our altar of devotion. ⁣ ⁣ don’t fear the mystery, my friends⁣ ⁣ make love to it⁣. be devoted to your desires. ⁣ ⁣ ❣️**Let me know in the comments:** *Will you lean into love? or resist it?* @kaiaandleo