One time I cut short a super expensive and important trip in..
Added 2021-09-26 00:58:36 +0000 UTCOne time I cut short a super expensive and important trip in Mexico to come back and try to go to CEO to help promote/hang out/make friends. I drove all the way to Daytona beach, paid for the extra plane ticket, said goodbye to the new important people I should have been hanging out with in Mexico to go to CEO. I was doing everything I thought a good friend would do. I didn’t have a place to stay after spending almost a thousand dollars to change my plans so my friend let me stay in his room. I woke up to him masturbating to my face and I was so fucking shocked I couldn’t really comprehend or accept what just happened. It’s taken me years to process and I’m still trying to process it and make ME feel okay because I don’t. What destroys me the most is my fear that he’s doing it to other yung, stupid, eager to make friends/be loved girls like me. He didn’t really show any remorse about it and I think that’s what bothered me the most about carrying what happened. Whenever he made some sort of comment that showed me he thought he was a good person, I d**d a little more on the inside. Whenever I saw him happily successfully working hard, I d**d a little more because I couldn’t function the same. I don’t feel like I have anything inside me anymore. I won’t talk to people outside my circle of friends unless my friends bring them in. I can’t take any more trauma or abuse from older men who don’t have feelings.
